Last night I was catching up with an old friend about life and loss and ugly details which can burn us up if we’re not careful to protect our spirit. And looking back I understand how fine that line truly is.
Take this for instance, I’m filled with warm delicious coffee in a fun mug while my healthy happy fully fed children watch Beauty and The Beast (quietly) just feet away. Life is kind in this moment.
Also in this very moment, my kitchen table holds a vase of flowers my husband sent me when we lost our baby just weeks ago. Beyond that view is a folded flag that still takes my breath away. I’ve had a lot of conversation about WHO my brother was this week. The details and memory of each of these things grip my heart a little too tightly this morning. And I can feel the tug to break again.
I learned during my miscarriage how to redirect focus from my pain to God. Transforming my focus through the trauma changed my relationship with Jesus. (My Maker is still Making Me.)
We ALL have these moments of fragility, yes? If you haven’t experienced deep pain, hold on- your time’s a comin friend.
At any given moment a perfectly happy person could sink from the details. Do you see? It’s impossible for us to know where one another is seated at the seesaw. Wether were up or down or balancing just there in the middle not knowing if a plunge or a leap is next.
Let’s be kinder to each other + to ourselves. I don’t want to miss an opportunity to love someone harder, even if that someone is me. Could your spirit be more gentle? Could you forgive or love or help someone who needs you even though you don’t need them? I can.
This life is a gift- We have the power (daily) to choose for ourselves how we treat people, how we love them, and how we impact everyone around us. I pray our hearts can be more like Christ and our spirits more gentle.
You never know who needs it.